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Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships, titled Ill Feelings, will be published by Fitzcarraldo Editions in 2021.


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Ill Feelings

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Issue No. 19

Alice Hattrick

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Issue No. 19

My mother recently found some loose diary pages I wrote in my first year of boarding school, aged eleven, whilst she was clearing out...

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February 2016

'Look at me, I said to the glass in a whisper, a breath.'

Alice Hattrick

Art

February 2016

Listen to her. She is telling you about her adolescence. She is telling you about one particular ‘bender’ that...

He is sitting on the back seat of a car, somewhere in France It’s a bright blue day, absurdly hot, and the roads are hazed with dust The car looks as though it’s been dragged out of a ditch It is coated in dust flung up by the wheels and scraps of weed are poking out the grille They ease into the automatic car wash and the daylight fades like a dimmer switch Rollers descend from above; close in from the sides The movement is dramatic somehow, like when the curtain rises in the theatre Pushing his forehead to the window, he watches the synchronised columns dervish around the car There are glimpses of the world outside but mostly he sees a wet black flicker This is the first time he’s been through a car wash He is five years old Vibrations travel from washer to window to skull and turn his tongue into a tuning fork Mist pounds against the glass while opaque liquids dribble, slide, are carved off by blades of pressurised air It is strange to be inside, to observe but not feel the raging water and foaming suds, here: the still point in a mechanised storm He is inside a violence which does not touch him The doors are locked It’s like being in a lift as it moves between floors, a state of enforced passivity he can’t will himself out of Caressed, scrubbed, breathed-on, showered: the cleansing envelops but never enters the car He pictures rainwater coating his skin in a liquid sheath, invisible armour How do those water-jets feel? What does the white foam taste like? He feels nothing: his body is air The machine is loud but muffled, a roar that sounds far-off yet visceral, the thud and rush of blood No one is talking His sister is heat-drugged, fast asleep; his parents are staring into the glassy darkness where the road should be Their heads are hollow cases enclosed within the hollow case of the car, which is enclosed within the machine, the city, the world He remembers the diagram of

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August 2014

Alice Hattrick

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August 2014

Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships,...

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July 2014

Alice Hattrick

Kristina Buch

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July 2014

There are many ways to make sense of the world, through language, speech and text, but also the senses and their extensions. In his...

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Issue No. 9

Ordinary Voids

Ed Aves

Patrick Langley

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Issue No. 9

I am standing in a parallelogram of shrubbery outside London City Airport. Ed is twisting a dial on his Mamiya...

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Issue No. 19

Once Sublime

Virginie Despentes

TR. Frank Wynne

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Issue No. 19

The music is sick! This guy’s a genius. Always trust Gaëlle. When they first saw him, everyone thought who...

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Issue No. 9

Pulitzer Prize-Winning Author James Murphy's Notes on Nicola Morelli Berengo

Francesco Pacifico

TR. Livia Franchini

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Issue No. 9

Biography | Cattolicissimo trio composed of mother father beloved son. God, why doesn’t the English language have an equivalent...

 

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