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Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships, titled Ill Feelings, will be published by Fitzcarraldo Editions in 2021.


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Ill Feelings

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Issue No. 19

Alice Hattrick

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Issue No. 19

My mother recently found some loose diary pages I wrote in my first year of boarding school, aged eleven, whilst she was clearing out...

Art

February 2016

'Look at me, I said to the glass in a whisper, a breath.'

Alice Hattrick

Art

February 2016

Listen to her. She is telling you about her adolescence. She is telling you about one particular ‘bender’ that...

On Sunday right after lunch, my father began preparing muskrat skins and cut his finger on a dirty penknife An orange erythema appeared around the wound When he got a fever, his lymph nodes swelled up and purple spots spread over his back, my mother called the ambulance from the village mayor’s house It came two hours later and took him away to the hospital, sirens blaring, with a suspected case of blood poisoning My mother said they replaced all his blood and pumped medicines into his stomach with a special pump   Miraculously, he managed to turn the corner after three weeks, but when he came home I hardly recognised him: he had lost more than twenty pounds and had gone almost completely deaf His eyes had lost their brightness, and his formerly swarthy face had turned the colour of a horseradish root He was given sick leave and for the time being stopped going to the paper mill He would get up at seven, throw his camouflage jacket over his shoulders and look out of the dining room window at the pond and the beehives, which stood scattered among bare currant bushes At nine, he would wash, put on his loafers and change into a shirt and his favourite, slightly too tight jumper with a black and white diamond pattern After swallowing two raw eggs, he’d look through old illustrated books about birds and fish which he’d brought home from the recycling centre at the mill, or he’d take out an old hunting knife with a deer-hoof handle from his taxidermy box and would sit opening and closing it as if he were playing some sort of game That’s how it was almost every day: he didn’t stuff animals any more, he didn’t play poker, he didn’t go fishing and, increasingly, he hardly ever said a word to anyone   He perked up only when he read in Beekeeping magazine that over the course of the harsh winter the frost had destroyed numerous apiaries in southern Poland He jumped up from the sofa, fetched a blackened saucepan from the dresser, poured

Contributor

August 2014

Alice Hattrick

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August 2014

Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships,...

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July 2014

Alice Hattrick

Kristina Buch

Art

July 2014

There are many ways to make sense of the world, through language, speech and text, but also the senses and their extensions. In his...

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Issue No. 11

Literature in a Distracted Era

Adam Thirlwell

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Issue No. 11

There are two categories in the literary system I’d like to celebrate at high speed: the lonely writer, and...

poetry

March 2017

Two Poems

Uljana Wolf

TR. Sophie Seita

poetry

March 2017

Mittens   winter came, stretched its frames, wove misty threads into the damp   wood. fogged windows, we didn’t...

Prize Entry

April 2016

Mute Canticle

Leon Craig

Prize Entry

April 2016

Giulio the singing fascist came to pick me up from the little airport in his Jeep. He made sure...

 

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