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Alice Hattrick
Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships, titled Ill Feelings, will be published by Fitzcarraldo Editions in 2021.


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Ill Feelings

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Issue No. 19

Alice Hattrick

Feature

Issue No. 19

My mother recently found some loose diary pages I wrote in my first year of boarding school, aged eleven, whilst she was clearing out...

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February 2016

'Look at me, I said to the glass in a whisper, a breath.'

Alice Hattrick

Art

February 2016

Listen to her. She is telling you about her adolescence. She is telling you about one particular ‘bender’ that...

When my husband unrolled the back door of the brewery’s lorry and hoisted first one cage, then another, onto our driveway, I said nothing For months now, I have greeted most of his gestures with silence, and I didn’t see why this should be any different I merely watched from the window with our two boys, Ryan and Jake Ryan – who, at 14, is three years older than Jake and thinks himself quite the man – smirked as his little brother gave a jump of excitement and rushed to the door But soon we were both following him out, eager to see what was in those cages   Neil stood, proudly displaying his offering On the first cage, the name BOBO was painted in scrappy green letters Inside, a small, dun-coloured rabbit sniffed the air enthusiastically   A thumping noise came from the second cage Moving closer, I saw a flash of something black and muscled MUFFIN was painted above this one’s door   Ryan and his father lugged the cages to the back of the house and stacked them on top of one another beneath the overgrown conifers I didn’t offer to help, despite Neil’s meaningful look in my direction The wood on those hutches was rough, and when he’d finished I could see Ryan kneading his fingers together behind his back No doubt he’d got several splinters, but it would have gained me nothing to question him   Neil stood back ‘They’re both bucks,’ he said ‘I made sure of that Don’t want them breeding like rabbits’ A wink at Ryan ‘So you just have to decide which one is yours’   Before Jake could speak, Ryan pointed to the top cage ‘I’ll have the black one’   Neil handed Ryan a packet of small brown pellets that smelled like rancid Marmite ‘Better get them fed,’ he said, and went back into the house Tuesday evening was his quiz night, which left me alone with the boys   I’ve always been close to both my sons Neil sometimes accuses me of favouring Ryan, and perhaps, despite my efforts to be fair, this is true Ryan is, and always has been,

Contributor

August 2014

Alice Hattrick

Contributor

August 2014

Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships,...

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July 2014

Alice Hattrick

Kristina Buch

Art

July 2014

There are many ways to make sense of the world, through language, speech and text, but also the senses and their extensions. In his...

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feature

July 2011

Editorial: a thousand witnesses are better than conscience

The Editors

feature

July 2011

The closure of any newspaper is a cause for sadness in any country that prides itself, as Britain does,...

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August 2013

The Ghosts of Place

Dylan Trigg

feature

August 2013

 ‘So I turned around for an instant to look at what my field of vision onto the sea had...

Interview

Issue No. 1

Interview with Will Self

Jacques Testard

Interview

Issue No. 1

Standing on the doorstep of Will Self’s London home ahead of this interview, last August, I was quite terrified....

 

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