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Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships, titled Ill Feelings, will be published by Fitzcarraldo Editions in 2021.


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Ill Feelings

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Issue No. 19

Alice Hattrick

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Issue No. 19

My mother recently found some loose diary pages I wrote in my first year of boarding school, aged eleven, whilst she was clearing out...

Art

February 2016

'Look at me, I said to the glass in a whisper, a breath.'

Alice Hattrick

Art

February 2016

Listen to her. She is telling you about her adolescence. She is telling you about one particular ‘bender’ that...

The Chief   The sound of the bell for the closing of the temple gate reaches my ears I am on my way to bring in the horses, as I can’t leave them outside to sleep during the old moon The sky is cloudy and dark, and the wind blows harder the further uphill I go The last rays of the setting sun still cling to the western ridge I don’t know if it’s the weather or the events of the day, but I can’t shake a sense of foreboding I get off my horse at the top of the hill No matter how much of a hurry I am in, I can’t ride past the ovoo without stopping I’m bent over, plucking a stone from the grass, when my daughter comes riding up on horseback A cold breeze blows across her forehead as she tells me the hunters have arrived Sure enough, there is a jeep parked in front of the ger camp below   I let go of the reins, add the stone to the top of the ovoo, and walk slowly around it in prayer The hunters are early I thought they would wait until after the old moon had passed But outsiders have no respect for our customs and laugh at such things as heavenly omens   My daughter sits slumped in the saddle Her eyes are blank, like her mind is somewhere else She’s been quiet lately and spends most of her time lying around I’ve caught her talking in her sleep a few times and had to slap her awake Now that it’s winter and there’s less work to do, she’ll get lazier and lazier Or maybe she’s just at that age She’s sixteen now, and I can tell from the way she turns clumsy and stupid whenever we have young guests staying at the camp that she’s started noticing boys I feel excluded as a father, or like I don’t exist to her anymore A long time ago, I had a mare that followed a wild horse into the steppes and disappeared That mare meant a lot to

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August 2014

Alice Hattrick

Contributor

August 2014

Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships,...

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Art

July 2014

Alice Hattrick

Kristina Buch

Art

July 2014

There are many ways to make sense of the world, through language, speech and text, but also the senses and their extensions. In his...

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April 2015

Les Archives du Coeur

Paul McQuade

Prize Entry

April 2015

The bike wheels skit and bounce on the loose dirt path. The smell of hot rubber and the smell...

feature

November 2011

The nobility of confusion: occupying the imagination

Drew Lyness

feature

November 2011

The Oakland Police Officers Association in California said something clever recently: ‘As your police officers, we are confused.’ It...

poetry

December 2011

Return After Earthquake

Jeffrey Angles

poetry

December 2011

although left for months my house is still standing here on terra firma branches broken by snow fallen into...

 

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